THE INTERIOR LIFE
The First Chapter
THE kingdom of God is within you," says the
Lord (Luke 17:21).
Turn, then, to God with all your heart. Forsake this wretched
world and your soul shall find rest. Learn to despise external
things, to devote yourself to those that are within, and you will
see the kingdom of God come unto you, that kingdom which is peace
and joy in the Holy Spirit, gifts not given to the impious.
Christ will come to you offering His consolation, if you
prepare a fit dwelling for Him in your heart, whose beauty and
glory, wherein He takes delight, are all from within. His visits
with the inward man are frequent, His communion sweet and full of
consolation, His peace great, and His intimacy wonderful indeed.
Therefore, faithful soul, prepare your heart for this
Bridegroom that He may come and dwell within you; He Himself says:
"If any one love Me, he will keep My word, and My Father will love
him, and We will come to him, and will make Our abode with him" (John 14:23).
Give place, then, to Christ, but deny entrance to all others,
for when you have Christ you are rich and He is sufficient for
you. He will provide for you. He will supply your every want, so
that you need not trust in frail, changeable men. Christ remains
forever, standing firmly with us to the end.
Do not place much confidence in weak and mortal man, helpful
and friendly though he be; and do not grieve too much if he
sometimes opposes and contradicts you. Those who are with us today
may be against us tomorrow, and vice versa, for men change with
the wind. Place all your trust in God; let Him be your fear and
your love. He will answer for you; He will do what is best for
You have here no lasting home. You are a stranger and a
pilgrim wherever you may be, and you shall have no rest until you
are wholly united with Christ.
Why do you look about here when this is not the place of your
repose? Dwell rather upon heaven and give but a passing glance to
all earthly things. They all pass away, and you together with
them. Take care, then, that you do not cling to them lest you be
entrapped and perish. Fix your mind on the Most High, and pray
unceasingly to Christ.
If you do not know how to meditate on heavenly things, direct
your thoughts to Christ's passion and willingly behold His sacred
wounds. If you turn devoutly to the wounds and precious stigmata
of Christ, you will find great comfort in suffering, you will mind
but little the scorn of men, and you will easily bear their
When Christ was in the world, He was despised by men; in the
hour of need He was forsaken by acquaintances and left by friends
to the depths of scorn. He was willing to suffer and to be
despised; do you dare to complain of anything? He had enemies and
defamers; do you want everyone to be your friend, your benefactor?
How can your patience be rewarded if no adversity test it? How can
you be a friend of Christ if you are not willing to suffer any
hardship? Suffer with Christ and for Christ if you wish to reign
Had you but once entered into perfect communion with Jesus or
tasted a little of His ardent love, you would care nothing at all
for your own comfort or discomfort but would rejoice in the
reproach you suffer; for love of Him makes a man despise himself.
A man who is a lover of Jesus and of truth, a truly interior
man who is free from uncontrolled affections, can turn to God at
will and rise above himself to enjoy spiritual peace.
He who tastes life as it really is, not as men say or think
it is, is indeed wise with the wisdom of God rather than of men.
He who learns to live the interior life and to take little
account of outward things, does not seek special places or times
to perform devout exercises. A spiritual man quickly recollects
himself because he has never wasted his attention upon externals.
No outside work, no business that cannot wait stands in his way.
He adjusts himself to things as they happen. He whose disposition
is well ordered cares nothing about the strange, perverse behavior
of others, for a man is upset and distracted only in proportion as
he engrosses himself in externals.
If all were well with you, therefore, and if you were
purified from all sin, everything would tend to your good and be
to your profit. But because you are as yet neither entirely dead
to self nor free from all earthly affection, there is much that
often displeases and disturbs you. Nothing so mars and defiles the
heart of man as impure attachment to created things. But if you
refuse external consolation, you will be able to contemplate
heavenly things and often to experience interior joy.
The Second Chapter
BE NOT troubled about those who are with you or against you, but
take care that God be with you in everything you do. Keep your
conscience clear and God will protect you, for the malice of man
cannot harm one whom God wishes to help. If you know how to suffer
in silence, you will undoubtedly experience God's help. He knows
when and how to deliver you; therefore, place yourself in His
hands, for it is a divine prerogative to help men and free them
from all distress.
It is often good for us to have others know our faults and
rebuke them, for it gives us greater humility. When a man humbles
himself because of his faults, he easily placates those about him
and readily appeases those who are angry with him.
It is the humble man whom God protects and liberates; it is
the humble whom He loves and consoles. To the humble He turns and
upon them bestows great grace, that after their humiliation He may
raise them up to glory. He reveals His secrets to the humble, and
with kind invitation bids them come to Him. Thus, the humble man
enjoys peace in the midst of many vexations, because his trust is
in God, not in the world. Hence, you must not think that you have
made any progress until you look upon yourself as inferior to all
The Third Chapter
Goodness and Peace in Man
FIRST keep peace with yourself; then you will be able to bring
peace to others. A peaceful man does more good than a learned man.
Whereas a passionate man turns even good to evil and is quick to
believe evil, the peaceful man, being good himself, turns all
things to good.
The man who is at perfect ease is never suspicious, but the
disturbed and discontented spirit is upset by many a suspicion. He
neither rests himself nor permits others to do so. He often says
what ought not to be said and leaves undone what ought to be done.
He is concerned with the duties of others but neglects his own.
Direct your zeal, therefore, first upon yourself; then you
may with justice exercise it upon those about you. You are well
versed in coloring your own actions with excuses which you will
not accept from others, though it would be more just to accuse
yourself and excuse your brother. If you wish men to bear with
you, you must bear with them. Behold, how far you are from true
charity and humility which does not know how to be angry with
anyone, or to be indignant save only against self!
It is no great thing to associate with the good and gentle,
for such association is naturally pleasing. Everyone enjoys a
peaceful life and prefers persons of congenial habits. But to be
able to live at peace with harsh and perverse men, or with the
undisciplined and those who irritate us, is a great grace, a
praiseworthy and manly thing.
Some people live at peace with themselves and with their
fellow men, but others are never at peace with themselves nor do
they bring it to anyone else. These latter are a burden to
everyone, but they are more of a burden to themselves. A few,
finally, live at peace with themselves and try to restore it to
Now, all our peace in this miserable life is found in humbly
enduring suffering rather than in being free from it. He who knows
best how to suffer will enjoy the greater peace, because he is the
conqueror of himself, the master of the world, a friend of Christ,
and an heir of heaven.
The Fourth Chapter
Purity of Mind and Unity of Purpose
A MAN is raised up from the earth by two wings -- simplicity and
purity. There must be simplicity in his intention and purity in
his desires. Simplicity leads to God, purity embraces and enjoys
If your heart is free from ill-ordered affection, no good
deed will be difficult for you. If you aim at and seek after
nothing but the pleasure of God and the welfare of your neighbor,
you will enjoy freedom within.
If your heart were right, then every created thing would be a
mirror of life for you and a book of holy teaching, for there is
no creature so small and worthless that it does not show forth the
goodness of God. If inwardly you were good and pure, you would see
all things clearly and understand them rightly, for a pure heart
penetrates to heaven and hell, and as a man is within, so he
judges what is without. If there be joy in the world, the pure of
heart certainly possess it; and if there be anguish and affliction
anywhere, an evil conscience knows it too well.
As iron cast into fire loses its rust and becomes glowing
white, so he who turns completely to God is stripped of his
sluggishness and changed into a new man. When a man begins to grow
lax, he fears a little toil and welcomes external comfort, but
when he begins perfectly to conquer himself and to walk bravely in
the ways of God, then he thinks those things less difficult which
he thought so hard before.
The Fifth Chapter
WE MUST not rely too much upon ourselves, for grace and
understanding are often lacking in us. We have but little inborn
light, and this we quickly lose through negligence. Often we are
not aware that we are so blind in heart. Meanwhile we do wrong,
and then do worse in excusing it. At times we are moved by
passion, and we think it zeal. We take others to task for small
mistakes, and overlook greater ones in ourselves. We are quick
enough to feel and brood over the things we suffer from others,
but we think nothing of how much others suffer from us. If a man
would weigh his own deeds fully and rightly, he would find little
cause to pass severe judgment on others.
The interior man puts the care of himself before all other
concerns, and he who attends to himself carefully does not find it
hard to hold his tongue about others. You will never be devout of
heart unless you are thus silent about the affairs of others and
pay particular attention to yourself. If you attend wholly to God
and yourself, you will be little disturbed by what you see about
Where are your thoughts when they are not upon yourself? And
after attending to various things, what have you gained if you
have neglected self? If you wish to have true peace of mind and
unity of purpose, you must cast all else aside and keep only
yourself before your eyes.
You will make great progress if you keep yourself free from
all temporal cares, for to value anything that is temporal is a
great mistake. Consider nothing great, nothing high, nothing
pleasing, nothing acceptable, except God Himself or that which is
of God. Consider the consolations of creatures as vanity, for the
soul that loves God scorns all things that are inferior to Him.
God alone, the eternal and infinite, satisfies all, bringing
comfort to the soul and true joy to the body.
The Sixth Chapter
The Joy of a Good Conscience
THE glory of a good man is the testimony of a good conscience.
Therefore, keep your conscience good and you will always enjoy
happiness, for a good conscience can bear a great deal and can
bring joy even in the midst of adversity. But an evil conscience
is ever restive and fearful.
Sweet shall be your rest if your heart does not reproach you.
Do not rejoice unless you have done well. Sinners never
experience true interior joy or peace, for "there is no peace to
the wicked," says the Lord (Isa. 48:22). Even if they say: "We are at
peace, no evil shall befall us and no one dares to hurt us," do
not believe them; for the wrath of God will arise quickly, and
their deeds will be brought to naught and their thoughts will
To glory in adversity is not hard for the man who loves, for
this is to glory in the cross of the Lord. But the glory given or
received of men is short lived, and the glory of the world is ever
companioned by sorrow. The glory of the good, however, is in their
conscience and not in the lips of men, for the joy of the just is
from God and in God, and their gladness is founded on truth.
The man who longs for the true, eternal glory does not care
for that of time; and he who seeks passing fame or does not in his
heart despise it, undoubtedly cares little for the glory of
He who minds neither praise nor blame possesses great peace
of heart and, if his conscience is good, he will easily be
contented and at peace.
Praise adds nothing to your holiness, nor does blame take
anything from it. You are what you are, and you cannot be said to
be better than you are in God's sight. If you consider well what
you are within, you will not care what men say about you. They
look to appearances but God looks to the heart. They consider the
deed but God weighs the motive.
It is characteristic of a humble soul always to do good and
to think little of itself. It is a mark of great purity and deep
faith to look for no consolation in created things. The man who
desires no justification from without has clearly entrusted
himself to God: "For not he who commendeth himself is approved,"
says St. Paul, "but he whom God commendeth" (2 Cor. 10:18).
To walk with God interiorly, to be free from any external
affection -- this is the state of the inward man.
The Seventh Chapter
Loving Jesus Above All Things
BLESSED is he who appreciates what it is to love Jesus and who
despises himself for the sake of Jesus. Give up all other love for
His, since He wishes to be loved alone above all things.
Affection for creatures is deceitful and inconstant, but the
love of Jesus is true and enduring. He who clings to a creature
will fall with its frailty, but he who gives himself to Jesus will
ever be strengthened.
Love Him, then; keep Him as a friend. He will not leave you
as others do, or let you suffer lasting death. Sometime, whether
you will or not, you will have to part with everything. Cling,
therefore, to Jesus in life and death; trust yourself to the glory
of Him who alone can help you when all others fail.
Your Beloved is such that He will not accept what belongs to
another -- He wants your heart for Himself alone, to be enthroned
therein as King in His own right. If you but knew how to free
yourself entirely from all creatures, Jesus would gladly dwell
You will find, apart from Him, that nearly all the trust you
place in men is a total loss. Therefore, neither confide in nor
depend upon a wind-shaken reed, for "all flesh is grass" (Isa. 15:6) and
all its glory, like the flower of grass, will fade away.
You will quickly be deceived if you look only to the outward
appearance of men, and you will often be disappointed if you seek
comfort and gain in them. If, however, you seek Jesus in all
things, you will surely find Him. Likewise, if you seek yourself,
you will find yourself -- to your own ruin. For the man who does
not seek Jesus does himself much greater harm than the whole world
and all his enemies could ever do.
The Eighth Chapter
The Intimate Friendship of Jesus
WHEN Jesus is near, all is well and nothing seems difficult. When
He is absent, all is hard. When Jesus does not speak within, all
other comfort is empty, but if He says only a word, it brings
Did not Mary Magdalen rise at once from her weeping when
Martha said to her: "The Master is come, and calleth for thee" (John 11:28)? Happy is the hour when Jesus calls one from tears to
joy of spirit.
How dry and hard you are without Jesus! How foolish and vain
if you desire anything but Him! Is it not a greater loss than
losing the whole world? For what, without Jesus, can the world
give you? Life without Him is a relentless hell, but living with
Him is a sweet paradise. If Jesus be with you, no enemy can harm
He who finds Jesus finds a rare treasure, indeed, a good
above every good, whereas he who loses Him loses more than the
whole world. The man who lives without Jesus is the poorest of the
poor, whereas no one is so rich as the man who lives in His grace.
It is a great art to know how to converse with Jesus, and
great wisdom to know how to keep Him. Be humble and peaceful, and
Jesus will be with you. Be devout and calm, and He will remain
with you. You may quickly drive Him away and lose His grace, if
you turn back to the outside world. And, if you drive Him away and
lose Him, to whom will you go and whom will you then seek as a
friend? You cannot live well without a friend, and if Jesus be not
your friend above all else, you will be very sad and desolate.
Thus, you are acting foolishly if you trust or rejoice in any
other. Choose the opposition of the whole world rather than offend
Jesus. Of all those who are dear to you, let Him be your special
love. Let all things be loved for the sake of Jesus, but Jesus for
His own sake.
Jesus Christ must be loved alone with a special love for He
alone, of all friends, is good and faithful. For Him and in Him
you must love friends and foes alike, and pray to Him that all may
know and love Him.
Never desire special praise or love, for that belongs to God
alone Who has no equal. Never wish that anyone's affection be
centered in you, nor let yourself be taken up with the love of
anyone, but let Jesus be in you and in every good man. Be pure and
free within, unentangled with any creature.
You must bring to God a clean and open heart if you wish to
attend and see how sweet the Lord is. Truly you will never attain
this happiness unless His grace prepares you and draws you on so
that you may forsake all things to be united with Him alone.
When the grace of God comes to a man he can do all things,
but when it leaves him he becomes poor and weak, abandoned, as it
were, to affliction. Yet, in this condition he should not become
dejected or despair. On the contrary, he should calmly await the
will of God and bear whatever befalls him in praise of Jesus
Christ, for after winter comes summer, after night, the day, and
after the storm, a great calm.
The Ninth Chapter
Wanting No Share in Comfort
IT IS not hard to spurn human consolation when we have the divine.
It is, however, a very great thing indeed to be able to live
without either divine or human comforting and for the honor of God
willingly to endure this exile of heart, not to seek oneself in
anything, and to think nothing of one's own merit.
Does it matter much, if at the coming of grace, you are
cheerful and devout? This is an hour desired by all, for he whom
the grace of God sustains travels easily enough. What wonder if he
feel no burden when borne up by the Almighty and led on by the
Supreme Guide! For we are always glad to have something to comfort
us, and only with difficulty does a man divest himself of self.
The holy martyr, Lawrence, with his priest, conquered the
world because he despised everything in it that seemed pleasing to
him, and for love of Christ patiently suffered the great high
priest of God, Sixtus, whom he loved dearly, to be taken from him.
Thus, by his love for the Creator he overcame the love of man, and
chose instead of human consolation the good pleasure of God. So
you, too, must learn to part with an intimate and much-needed
friend for the love of God. Do not take it to heart when you are
deserted by a friend, knowing that in the end we must all be
parted from one another.
A man must fight long and bravely against himself before he
learns to master himself fully and to direct all his affections
toward God. When he trusts in himself, he easily takes to human
consolation. The true lover of Christ, however, who sincerely
pursues virtue, does not fall back upon consolations nor seek such
pleasures of sense, but prefers severe trials and hard labors for
the sake of Christ.
When, therefore, spiritual consolation is given by God,
receive it gratefully, but understand that it is His gift and not
your meriting. Do not exult, do not be overjoyed, do not be
presumptuous, but be the humbler for the gift, more careful and
wary in all your actions, for this hour will pass and temptation
will come in its wake.
When consolation is taken away, do not at once despair but
wait humbly and patiently for the heavenly visit, since God can
restore to you more abundant solace.
This is neither new nor strange to one who knows God's ways,
for such change of fortune often visited the great saints and
prophets of old. Thus there was one who, when grace was with him,
declared: "In my prosperity I said: 'I shall never be moved.'" But
when grace was taken away, he adds what he experienced in himself:
"Thou didst hide Thy face, and I was troubled." Meanwhile he does
not despair; rather he prays more earnestly to the Lord, saying:
"To Thee, O Lord, will I cry; and I will make supplication to my
God." At length, he receives the fruit of his prayer, and
testifying that he was heard, says "The Lord hath heard, and hath
had mercy on me: the Lord became my helper." And how was he
helped? "Thou hast turned," he says, "my mourning into joy, and
hast surrounded me with gladness" (Ps. 29:7-12).
If this is the case with great saints, we who are weak and
poor ought not to despair because we are fervent at times and at
other times cold, for the spirit comes and goes according to His
will. Of this the blessed Job declared: "Thou visitest him early
in the morning, and Thou provest him suddenly" (Job 7:18).
In what can I hope, then, or in whom ought I trust, save only
in the great mercy of God and the hope of heavenly grace? For
though I have with me good men, devout brethren, faithful friends,
holy books, beautiful treatises, sweet songs and hymns, all these
help and please but little when I am abandoned by grace and left
to my poverty. At such times there is no better remedy than
patience and resignation of self to the will of God.
I have never met a man so religious and devout that he has
not experienced at some time a withdrawal of grace and felt a
lessening of fervor. No saint was so sublimely rapt and
enlightened as not to be tempted before and after. He, indeed, is
not worthy of the sublime contemplation of God who has not been
tried by some tribulation for the sake of God. For temptation is
usually the sign preceding the consolation that is to follow, and
heavenly consolation is promised to all those proved by
temptation. "To him that overcometh," says Christ, "I will give to
eat of the Tree of Life" (Apoc. 2:7). Divine consolation, then, is given
in order to make a man braver in enduring adversity, and
temptation follows in order that he may not pride himself on the
good he has done.
The devil does not sleep, nor is the flesh yet dead;
therefore, you must never cease your preparation for battle,
because on the right and on the left are enemies who never rest.
The Tenth Chapter
Appreciating God's Grace
WHY do you look for rest when you were born to work? Resign
yourself to patience rather than to comfort, to carrying your
cross rather than to enjoyment.
What man in the world, if he could always have them, would
not readily accept consolation and spiritual joy, benefits which
excel all earthly delights and pleasures of the body? The latter,
indeed, are either vain or base, while spiritual joys, born of
virtue and infused by God into pure minds, are alone truly
pleasant and noble.
Now, since the moment of temptation is always nigh, since
false freedom of mind and overconfidence in self are serious
obstacles to these visitations from heaven, a man can never enjoy
them just as he wishes.
God does well in giving the grace of consolation, but man
does evil in not returning everything gratefully to God. Thus, the
gifts of grace cannot flow in us when we are ungrateful to the
Giver, when we do not return them to the Fountainhead. Grace is
always given to him who is duly grateful, and what is wont to be
given the humble will be taken away from the proud.
I do not desire consolation that robs me of contrition, nor
do I care for contemplation that leads to pride, for not all that
is high is holy, nor is all that is sweet good, nor every desire
pure, nor all that is dear to us pleasing to God. I accept
willingly the grace whereby I become more humble and contrite,
more willing to renounce self.
The man who has been taught by the gift of grace, and who
learns by the lash of its withdrawal, will never dare to attribute
any good to himself, but will rather admit his poverty and
emptiness. Give to God what is God's and ascribe to yourself what
is yours. Give Him thanks, then, for His grace, but place upon
yourself alone the blame and the punishment your fault deserves.
Always take the lowest place and the highest will be given
you, for the highest cannot exist apart from the lowest. The
saints who are greatest before God are those who consider
themselves the least, and the more humble they are within
themselves, so much the more glorious they are. Since they do not
desire vainglory, they are full of truth and heavenly glory. Being
established and strengthened in God, they can by no means be
proud. They attribute to God whatever good they have received;
they seek no glory from one another but only that which comes from
God alone. They desire above all things that He be praised in
themselves and in all His saints -- this is their constant
Be grateful, therefore, for the least gift and you will be
worthy to receive a greater. Consider the least gift as the
greatest, the most contemptible as something special. And, if you
but look to the dignity of the Giver, no gift will appear too
small or worthless. Even though He give punishments and scourges,
accept them, because He acts for our welfare in whatever He allows
to befall us.
He who desires to keep the grace of God ought to be grateful
when it is given and patient when it is withdrawn. Let him pray
that it return; let him be cautious and humble lest he lose it.
The Eleventh Chapter
Few Love the Cross of Jesus
JESUS has always many who love His heavenly kingdom, but few who
bear His cross. He has many who desire consolation, but few who
care for trial. He finds many to share His table, but few to take
part in His fasting. All desire to be happy with Him; few wish to
suffer anything for Him. Many follow Him to the breaking of bread,
but few to the drinking of the chalice of His passion. Many revere
His miracles; few approach the shame of the Cross. Many love Him
as long as they encounter no hardship; many praise and bless Him
as long as they receive some comfort from Him. But if Jesus hides
Himself and leaves them for a while, they fall either into
complaints or into deep dejection. Those, on the contrary, who
love Him for His own sake and not for any comfort of their own,
bless Him in all trial and anguish of heart as well as in the
bliss of consolation. Even if He should never give them
consolation, yet they would continue to praise Him and wish always
to give Him thanks. What power there is in pure love for Jesus --
love that is flee from all self-interest and self-love!
Do not those who always seek consolation deserve to be called
mercenaries? Do not those who always think of their own profit and
gain prove that they love themselves rather than Christ? Where can
a man be found who desires to serve God for nothing? Rarely indeed
is a man so spiritual as to strip himself of all things. And who
shall find a man so truly poor in spirit as to be free from every
creature? His value is like that of things brought from the most
If a man give all his wealth, it is nothing; if he do great
penance, it is little; if he gain all knowledge, he is still far
afield; if he have great virtue and much ardent devotion, he still
lacks a great deal, and especially, the one thing that is most
necessary to him. What is this one thing? That leaving all, he
forsake himself, completely renounce himself, and give up all
private affections. Then, when he has done all that he knows ought
to be done, let him consider it as nothing, let him make little of
what may be considered great; let him in all honesty call himself
an unprofitable servant. For truth itself has said: "When you
shall have done all these things that are commanded you, say: 'we
are unprofitable servants'" (Luke 17:10).
Then he will be truly poor and stripped in spirit, and with
the prophet may say: "I am alone and poor" (Ps. 24:16). No one, however,
is more wealthy than such a man; no one is more powerful, no one
freer than he who knows how to leave all things and think of
himself as the least of all.
The Twelfth Chapter
The Royal Road of the Holy Cross
TO MANY the saying, "Deny thyself, take up thy cross and follow
Me" (Matt. 16:24), seems hard, but it will be much harder to hear that final
word: "Depart from Me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire" (Matt. 25:41).
Those who hear the word of the cross and follow it willingly now,
need not fear that they will hear of eternal damnation on the day
of judgment. This sign of the cross will be in the heavens when
the Lord comes to judge. Then all the servants of the cross, who
during life made themselves one with the Crucified, will draw near
with great trust to Christ, the judge.
Why, then, do you fear to take up the cross when through it
you can win a kingdom? In the cross is salvation, in the cross is
life, in the cross is protection from enemies, in the cross is
infusion of heavenly sweetness, in the cross is strength of mind,
in the cross is joy of spirit, in the cross is highest virtue, in
the cross is perfect holiness. There is no salvation of soul nor
hope of everlasting life but in the cross.
Take up your cross, therefore, and follow Jesus, and you
shall enter eternal life. He Himself opened the way before you in
carrying His cross, and upon it He died for you, that you, too,
might take up your cross and long to die upon it. If you die with
Him, you shall also live with Him, and if you share His suffering,
you shall also share His glory.
Behold, in the cross is everything, and upon your dying on
the cross everything depends. There is no other way to life and to
true inward peace than the way of the holy cross and daily
mortification. Go where you will, seek what you will, you will not
find a higher way, nor a less exalted but safer way, than the way
of the holy cross. Arrange and order everything to suit your will
and judgment, and still you will find that some suffering must
always be borne, willingly or unwillingly, and thus you will
always find the cross.
Either you will experience bodily pain or you will undergo
tribulation of spirit in your soul. At times you will be forsaken
by God, at times troubled by those about you and, what is worse,
you will often grow weary of yourself. You cannot escape, you
cannot be relieved by any remedy or comfort but must bear with it
as long as God wills. For He wishes you to learn to bear trial
without consolation, to submit yourself wholly to Him that you may
become more humble through suffering. No one understands the
passion of Christ so thoroughly or heartily as the man whose lot
it is to suffer the like himself.
The cross, therefore, is always ready; it awaits you
everywhere. No matter where you may go, you cannot escape it, for
wherever you go you take yourself with you and shall always find
yourself. Turn where you will -- above, below, without, or within
-- you will find a cross in everything, and everywhere you must
have patience if you would have peace within and merit an eternal
If you carry the cross willingly, it will carry and lead you
to the desired goal where indeed there shall be no more suffering,
but here there shall be. If you carry it unwillingly, you create a
burden for yourself and increase the load, though still you have
to bear it. If you cast away one cross, you will find another and
perhaps a heavier one. Do you expect to escape what no mortal man
can ever avoid? Which of the saints was without a cross or trial
on this earth? Not even Jesus Christ, our Lord, Whose every hour
on earth knew the pain of His passion. "It behooveth Christ to
suffer, and to rise again from the dead, . . . and so enter into
his glory" (Luke 24:46, 26). How is it that you look for another way than this,
the royal way of the holy cross?
The whole life of Christ was a cross and a martyrdom, and do
you seek rest and enjoyment for yourself? You deceive yourself,
you are mistaken if you seek anything but to suffer, for this
mortal life is full of miseries and marked with crosses on all
sides. Indeed, the more spiritual progress a person makes, so much
heavier will he frequently find the cross, because as his love
increases, the pain of his exile also increases.
Yet such a man, though afflicted in many ways, is not without
hope of consolation, because he knows that great reward is coming
to him for bearing his cross. And when he carries it willingly,
every pang of tribulation is changed into hope of solace from God.
Besides, the more the flesh is distressed by affliction, so much
the more is the spirit strengthened by inward grace. Not
infrequently a man is so strengthened by his love of trials and
hardship in his desire to conform to the cross of Christ, that he
does not wish to be without sorrow or pain, since he believes he
will be the more acceptable to God if he is able to endure more
and more grievous things for His sake.
It is the grace of Christ, and not the virtue of man, which
can and does bring it about that through fervor of spirit frail
flesh learns to love and to gain what it naturally hates and
To carry the cross, to love the cross, to chastise the body
and bring it to subjection, to flee honors, to endure contempt
gladly, to despise self and wish to be despised, to suffer any
adversity and loss, to desire no prosperous days on earth -- this
is not man's way. If you rely upon yourself, you can do none of
these things, but if you trust in the Lord, strength will be given
you from heaven and the world and the flesh will be made subject
to your word. You will not even fear your enemy, the devil, if you
are armed with faith and signed with the cross of Christ.
Set yourself, then, like a good and faithful servant of
Christ, to bear bravely the cross of your Lord, Who out of love
was crucified for you. Be ready to suffer many adversities and
many kinds of trouble in this miserable life, for troublesome and
miserable life will always be, no matter where you are; and so you
will find it wherever you may hide. Thus it must be; and there is
no way to evade the trials and sorrows of life but to bear them.
Drink the chalice of the Lord with affection it you wish to
be His friend and to have part with Him. Leave consolation to God;
let Him do as most pleases Him. On your part, be ready to bear
sufferings and consider them the greatest consolation, for even
though you alone were to undergo them all, the sufferings of this
life are not worthy to be compared with the glory to come.
When you shall have come to the point where suffering is
sweet and acceptable for the sake of Christ, then consider
yourself fortunate, for you have found paradise on earth. But as
long as suffering irks you and you seek to escape, so long will
you be unfortunate, and the tribulation you seek to evade will
follow you everywhere. If you put your mind to the things you
ought to consider, that is, to suffering and death, you would soon
be in a better state and would find peace.
Although you were taken to the third heaven with Paul, you
were not thereby insured against suffering. Jesus said: "I will
show him how great things he must suffer for My name's sake" (Acts 9:16).
To suffer, then, remains your lot, if you mean to love Jesus and
serve Him forever.
If you were but worthy to suffer something for the name of
Jesus, what great glory would be in store for you, what great joy
to all the saints of God, what great edification to those about
you! For all men praise patience though there are few who wish to
With good reason, then, ought you to be willing to suffer a
little for Christ since many suffer much more for the world.
Realize that you must lead a dying life; the more a man dies
to himself, the more he begins to live unto God.
No man is fit to enjoy heaven unless he has resigned himself
to suffer hardship for Christ. Nothing is more acceptable to God,
nothing more helpful for you on this earth than to suffer
willingly for Christ. If you had to make a choice, you ought to
wish rather to suffer for Christ than to enjoy many consolations,
for thus you would be more like Christ and more like all the
saints. Our merit and progress consist not in many pleasures and
comforts but rather in enduring great afflictions and sufferings.
If, indeed, there were anything better or more useful for
man's salvation than suffering, Christ would have shown it by word
and example. But He clearly exhorts the disciples who follow Him
and all who wish to follow Him to carry the cross, saying: "If any
man will come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his
cross daily, and follow Me" (Luke 9:23).
When, therefore, we have read and searched all that has been
written, let this be the final conclusion -- that through much
suffering we must enter into the kingdom of God.